Get Your Rear in Gear 5k

So today was my 5K, I came in 925 out of 1018 with a time of 45:16 and a pace of 14:22/mile.  This was faster than I anticipated, but that's because I had Julius of Run Maul Run with me pushing me.  He's going to be an awesome coach for his group when they start training again.  He never left even though he could have finished way faster than that.

There we are getting ready to cross the finish line (I'm in pink and Julius is in blue).  It was good to get out and participate in an organized run.  There is a lot of positive energy at these events, no one to beat but everyone to help you and support you.  I finished it, which meant I won.  Doesn't matter how fast I was going but that I finished.  

That's what this journey is all about, it's not about how fast, it's just about the process.  I'm not the fastest one out there to the finish line but I'm going to make it to that finish line some day.  

The runner's high is amazing, isn't it?  I would have never considered myself a runner until a few years ago and even then, I'm not a very consistent runner, but the gauntlet has been thrown so maybe my consistency can improve.

And hopefully with improved consistency will come improved weight loss/health.  I ran today for my mom who's a colon cancer survivor and I hope with better health I, too, can survive anything.  

Here's to putting the runner's high to good use to continue using the positive energy to moving forward.  

Time

When am I going to find the time?  I am a full time teacher, a part time grad student, a part time retail store associate and am attempting to get a direct sales position going (I've got a year).  But amongst all of this I need to have the time and energy to pay attention to what I'm eating as well as the time to get out for some exercise.  I know that if I work out I feel more energized and can do everything I need to do, when I eat better I feel better, but when am I going to be able to squeeze it all in?

Now I've been asked to take on a partial overload at school to prepare students for the state biology test, I have practicum students once a week whom I need to mentor and my house elf will be going back to work (yay and nay...lol).  With my house elf heading back to work I will then need to also shoulder my part of the house work again.

So time, when am I going to find the time and the energy to do this right?

At long last....no more excuses

I've been a procrastinating poster as of late.  I was/am frustrated with myself, I have not really progressed at all with my weight lately.  My significant other moved in and he's a big cookie/sweet eater so that's not helping matters, can I blame him??  No, I can't but I can at least ask for his help in changing our home environment so I can be more successful.

I also made some excuses, you know the ones..."I'm tired" "PMS is acting up" "I'm sick" and a variety of other excuses.  But now I don't have the option of continuing to excuse myself, two reasons:
1.  My 5K race is in 17 days....so I'm running that whether I "feel" like it or not
2.  I'm not getting anywhere standing still

I always pride myself on moving forward, but right now I'm standing still and not getting anywhere fast.  So in an effort to kick-start myself, I changed gyms.  And I'm logging, whether I like it or not.  Even on days when my food consumption is 30+ points over what it should be.  Tracking my food forces me to own the truth about my food and forces me to look at it critically.  I do not have a good relationship with food, I still think I need more than I really do, but I have yet to identify why my relationship with food is still not fixed.  I didn't have a traumatic event as a child, my parents loved me, I did well in things that I tried.  I never am the smartest person in my family or group of friends and sometimes that made me feel inferior, but since childhood I've accepted my lack of traditional brains because I know I'm good at other things.

So tonight I'm making a new playlist to take to the gym tomorrow and I've got a log for my workouts too, so here we go.  That's the nice thing about life, we can always improve it.

"Don't call it a mistake, call it an education" ~Thomas Edison

"It's never too late to be what you might have been"  ~George Eliot